So, I’ve been away for a little while. Half because I had to focus on school, and the other half because I stopped online dating.
Now, I am two months away from graduating and have gone back to online dating again!
To begin, here is an amusing message I received the other day: “You interest me, awkwardly enough.”
straight boys think girls can’t take compliments, and that’s ridiculous cause i’ve seen so many girls compliment each other, i’ve seen conversations & friendships blossom from girls complimenting each other in line, on the street, at school waiting for the bys, pretty much anywhere.
the problem is straight boys think sexual harassment & assault are compliments.
I’ve avoided everything I possibly can since my second date with Graham that might even slightly remind me of the night. I’m not too upset about how things turned out that night. I’m just a little hung up on the idea that maybe this could’ve been finally my chance at a relationship and maybe love. Since I haven’t experienced either.
I believe that’s the reason I get attached easily to guys in the first place. Maybe not for love, but probably because I just want to know what it’s all about to have a relationship and why so many people and their mothers are all about it. I feel as if I at least need to “try” it out once.
But maybe I’ll always be that friend with great relationship advice for others, that leads a very awkward single life herself.
On a related note, I have deleted my online dating profile. I only went on dates with two people from it, and it seems it was two too many. Though, I am happy for the experiences. I’ve learned my lesson however, and I just need to accept that I cannot will myself into a relationship. I just need to focus on myself and work on myself. If I find a guy that’s willing to stick around through my crazy, spastic, awkward, childish and intense periods, great!